Things happen for a reason

Well April has finally arrived and I am finally starting to feel a bit more stable in my life.

I got wait listed for teachers collage, which sucks but with the double cohort graduating I guess the spots filled up pretty quickly. I am going to go and talk to the admissions in the Education department here and find out where I need to improve in my application. And then use the next year doing so. I also plan on going back part-time next year (although still graduating in June) to upgrade. Give them no reason not to get me in next year.

I have a place to live, and one that I can afford. Richard, John Lyle and I are all moving into a big two bedroom apt on Crawford. The place is beautiful, huge and cheap. Oh and I will have a backyard again!! One of the first things I will be doing is putting in a garden that I will actually be able to enjoy this year!

Things with Richard and I are going well. One step at a time.

My life otherwise has been pretty lonely. Dont get me wrong I love my friends, but it sucks that they are all in other towns. I miss Amanda. I think that perhaps it is best for both of us that things were broken off (neither of us were happy), but I wish that things had of been handled more maturely. I am not angry anymore nor really hurt. I just simply miss a friend that I had considered a sister. Neither of us have so many friends to throw away those close to us. But at the same time, if neither of us were happy or felt comfortable with the other person anymore....I dont know if much could have been done to save the friendship we had let fall apart. I do miss my sister though.

But everything happens for a reason.

Perhaps not getting into teachers collage this year is a blessing in disguise; Richard may be done by the time I get out of teachers collage now and we can move together to London.

Moving in with John and Richard will give Richard and I time to adjust again and give us the chance to really work on seeing if we can get back together.

And things with Amanda have forced me to take stock on all of my friendships and decide what I feel is important for a friendship to have. It has forced me to draw the line between what I am willing to give to another person and what I need for myself.

So, Mom was right. Everything does happen for a reason and the only thing I can do is try to learn the lessons as they fly by and treat others as I would like them to treat me. Everyone makes mistakes but you need to learn to forgive yourself and only take the blame for what you have actually done wrong. It sucks sometimes but life moves on and you can either sit and cry or get off your ass and move along with it.