The healing place that is Port Burwell

This place is so beautiful and peaceful. Nature all around and all of the elements are present in their most natural forms. A feeling a peace surrounds me and is keeping me from being too upset.

I am staying longer. I know of no better way to heal.

What the last 10 mos has taught me

1. Some people ARE what people warn you about and no amount of wanting it to be wrong will change it.

2. Pain means nothing, or close enough to it, unless its the pain someone else is inflicting on you, unfairly.

3. Sometimes love isnt enough.

4. Say whatever you want because the moment you do something seen as different, your words mean nothing.

5.What you do isnt as important as what people think of you.

6. Everyone makes mistakes but dont screw up.

7. Broken people arent worth helping unless you get what you want from them.

8. Understanding is more important than passion; it will also last longer.

9. Know exactly what you want before you do ANYTHING.

10. Trying is never good enough; do it or dont bother.

I hope I am learning fast enough. I guess the world is not as caring and loving as I thought it was. Most people want what they want when they want it and if not, then oh well.

I dont want to be told Im broken anymore. I dont want to be in so much pain. I want the light to shine. I want to be whole. I want my faults and cracks to be okay. To be part of me.

I am not giving up.
I refuse to allow this to end in sorrow.
There is too much to lose
and so much waiting to be grasped.
Enough of sitting and letting things happen.
I will NOT just melt away.
Time can heal,
but only if given reason.
Love is a reason,
in its many forms.
It is time to take charge.
Past time.
I can learn and I am.
Not again.
Right this time.
Dont give up.
Ever.