My wings are drying....

So things have been interesting lately. Both Richard and I are stressed out right now, so we are kinda on edge with each other. I am getting a bit better (once this stupid project is in I can take a breath again) but it doesn't seem like I can do much for him. I also know that I'm just adding to the stress by both looking to him for support as well as putting pressure on him for what we can do come April. I hate doing it, but really don't know what else to do. Most of weither or not we can live together come April is on his plate. Its an awful lot of pressure and weight on his shoulders and I don't know how to help take some off. He is planning a trip or two out of this town, which will hopefully put more of a spring back in his step. I hope.

This at home seem to be up in arms again, which isn't good. All of this research that I have been doing for my project has given me a different outlook on my brother's attitude, but it still hasn't given me anything that will fix it. Saying that, it has also shed a lot of light on my own attitudes towards things. It's not the most comfortable feeling putting yourself under a mircoscope, especially when you do finally see things and then don't know how to change them or even if you should.

On a happier note, the club is finally becoming fun for me again, now that it isn't putting so much pressure on me. Gaming also looks like it is turning around. A couple of things have happened recently that has put RPGing in not the best light and has given me a slightly different view of certain people (for both good and bad). However, I still want to have fun with gaming and it looks like I will et the chance. I'm currently playing an Exalt who is insane and am creating a slayer character for Drew's Buffy game. funfun

My Mommy is coming down this weekend, along with Sean, Matt and his girl, Ashley. I'm excited and also a bit aprehensive. Mom has been putting a bunch of pressure on me about living arrangements for next year (which I don't like) and now with Matt acting up again....I hope we can all just have some fun.

I would like to start doing more things with everyone again. I'm not completely back to my social self (nor are those who I want to spend time with) but I'll try if you do.....what do you say??