Well the confusion is over and now the guilt begins.

I know that I have done what I need to do and that there are sometime that I "need to be selfish", but that will not stop me from feeling the guilt of hurting someone dear to me. Patrick and I are over. It is the best thing for both of us, even if he doesn't see it completely. It is also the best thing for me and what my heart is telling me I need to do. I have to trust it, even if it does hurt me.

I may be a little out of wack for the next few days before I leave for home, but everything happens for a reason and I can only trust to that. I am extreamly sorry....but I need to move on.

I hope that he can understand.